I saw several blogs this week that completely fed into my insecurities. The first blog mentioned how the author just lost several pounds this past week. Instantly I had a pitty party, nevermind the fact I have lost about 13 pounds this past semester.
The second blog recapped a birthday party and all I could think about was how my kid's party didn't measure up. I also reminded myself how I don't work so I don't contribute financially, and that I am a full time student so I don't have the time to dedicate to planning fun activities. It was almost overwhelming how frustrated I was letting myself get about my situation in comparison to this family.
REDICULOUS.
Did you know that an average individual's "self talk" per day is 80% negative self-reflection? (I heard that during a psych lecture, so excuse me for not citing the reference.) But honestly, today is a day where I feel like my percentage would be more realistic at 95%. I really need to work on lowering that average to around 40%. (Originally I thought 50% would be good, but that only means that I'm neutral in how I feel about myself. 40% negativity means that I have a positive overlap :).
So I'm telling myself that this is one instance where 100% is NOT what I want. I've never been in the 40th percentile, I'm too good of a student (+ 1%) so this may take some getting used to.
Why don't we "flunk" negativity together? How about you comment and tell me one or more postives for yourself!
I am a GOOD mom.
ReplyDeleteI am an awesome wife.
My hair is pretty.
I like that I have a ghetto booty. :)
It's hard to be positive about myself a lot of times. Even on my good days- I'm hard on myself. I just did a whole journal entry about how much I beat on myself. I'll save the discussion for real life since I could seriously write an essay.
I love you Heather and I just want to write some of the reasons why. #1 you are honest and REAL. #2 you have a fun personality and you aren't afraid to be yourself. #3 you are SMART, hard-working and determined! And you are BEAUTIFUL, but I'd love you even if you weren't :) so I didn't give that one a number on the list.
ReplyDeleteI could also write an essay now cuz I have been working on this very same thing...the positive self talk. I've had a lot of success over the past few years by ALWAYS smiling at my reflection and saying positive things when I look in the mirror. About 5 years back, I lived with a girl who talked bad about herself so I put up stickers on our mirror that spelled "HELLO BEAUTIFUL!" it worked wonders. She and I always felt so good looking at that above our reflection.