95% Day...I'd Rather Be Flunking

Isn't it amazing how insecure we let ourselves feel when we're already down? It's almost like we have to beat ourselves up while we are already feeling incompetent because we feel like we deserve it.

I saw several blogs this week that completely fed into my insecurities. The first blog mentioned how the author just lost several pounds this past week. Instantly I had a pitty party, nevermind the fact I have lost about 13 pounds this past semester.

The second blog recapped a birthday party and all I could think about was how my kid's party didn't measure up. I also reminded myself how I don't work so I don't contribute financially, and that I am a full time student so I don't have the time to dedicate to planning fun activities. It was almost overwhelming how frustrated I was letting myself get about my situation in comparison to this family.

REDICULOUS.

Did you know that an average individual's "self talk" per day is 80% negative self-reflection? (I heard that during a psych lecture, so excuse me for not citing the reference.) But honestly, today is a day where I feel like my percentage would be more realistic at 95%. I really need to work on lowering that average to around 40%. (Originally I thought 50% would be good, but that only means that I'm neutral in how I feel about myself. 40% negativity means that I have a positive overlap :).

So I'm telling myself that this is one instance where 100% is NOT what I want. I've never been in the 40th percentile, I'm too good of a student (+ 1%) so this may take some getting used to.

Why don't we "flunk" negativity together? How about you comment and tell me one or more postives for yourself!

Isn't That What We're Supposed To Do?

This story has stuck with me for a while and if it belongs anywhere it belongs on this blog. (True story from a direct source)

Summary: A girl goes to a social event. She sits down at a table and starts up a conversation with a few individuals who are also dining with her. During the course of the conversation, one of the individuals asks the girl where she learned to tie her scarf the way she did. The girl openly mentions she saw it on a mannequin in a store a few days prior and decided the give it a try. The others at the table look at the girl with a strange look, as if to infer her lack of sophistication/style/tact/etc.

Really? Apparently this girl is ahead of the game because she caught the attention of the others sitting at the table in the first place.

Store fronts dress mannequins to attract consumers. That's the purpose of the mannequin. I've gone into a store and bought the entire outfit that the store front model was wearing and it was one of my best outfits. What I don't understand is what is wrong with doing that. Do people really spin their stories around buying clothes?

What is wrong with buying/accessorising like the model? Or admitting to doing it? After all, isn't that what we're supposed to do?